I am on Holiday

Work was so slow yesterday and I didn't make a sale. I didn't really care. Life is too short sweat little thing like that.

I have been thinking about how to make the world. I realised that I need to start with one person a day. I gotta work hard to spread it by encourage people to do the same thing. It will spread out like wild fire.

A Better World

When I was making pointless phone calls to my customer today, I kept thinking about living in a better world. I was wondering how will those phone calls make the world better. Since those calls were pointless, I concluded that they weren't doing our world any good. In a way, I could be making the world a worse place to live. After all, I did nothing to improve anyone's quality of life. I don't care what kind of charity or clause that my employer support, I wasn't doing anything to make the world a better place.

Then I wanted to know what would I do to improve our world. I seriously don't know. All I know that I am part of the corporate world and most of my employers don't care about anything. They just want profit. They want more money. They want to grow their enterprises. Money is the only motivating force in the corporate world. There can never be enough for any one and we always want more than the next one. Everyone is motivated by greed. I don't care how any one defines it, greed is a driving force. Money is the roots of all evil.

I wonder what the world would like if we are not motivated by acquisition of wealth and wanted to better ourselves and the humanity. It will be a world like the Star Trek Universe. We should do work to better the community and make every one happy. We should stop our focus on the corporate world, but rather on our own communities. Instead of wanting more, we need to know what makes us happy. We should focus on having a healthy community at once. The excess of the 80's was last generation and not ever one left that behind.

We should focus on making the world a better place.

I don't know why

During this morning's sales meeting, I was accused for not entering an order for a customer. The customer wasn't mine but I talked to her yesterday. The customer clearly stated if she couldn't get the product the next day, she wasn't interested in placing the order. I informed her that the products won't be delivered the next day. She didn't place the order.

Of course, the customer called again this morning. She spoke with her regular rep. She placed the order.

The sales manager had the problem with me. She didn't think I was doing my job, and didn't really give me the chance to defend myself. In fact, she told everyone in the department how I wasn't doing my job right. But, I didn't give a shit. I don't care what that fat bitch said about me. I know that I didn't do anything wrong.

I waited my turn and explained the situation. Instead of being defensive, I explained the situation. Calmly as well. However, the meeting ruined my day.

That fucking bitch always accused me and picked on me. And she wonders why people don't like working with her and keep leaving the company.

Oh yeah, I will be leaving once I found something new.

Office Christmas Party

I hate office christmas party. Just because I work the company that doesn't mean that I would be attending it. As far as I concern, weekends are mine and I have no desire to socialise with a bunch of people that I don't care about. To a certain degree, I won't even consider them as friends. I don't want to see them or talk to them if I don't have to.

I also don't want to let them know about me. I don't see the point of revealing my true self to them. I have no desire to blend my social life with my work life.

I found out that many people share my point of view as well. I wonder why companies need to do stuff like this every year. Some people make friends at work, but I don't make friends, unless we have something in common. Just because I share a common work space, that doesn't mean that I will share my life with them.

Oh yeah, if there is a gunman at my work, I will not take a bullet for any one of them. I don't even care if the gunman shoots at one of the women. I will just watch her die and plan my escape.

Shopping

I need to get some shopping done, but I don't venture out to the public shopping area. I don't want to be in a place full of strangers that I don't care about. I just want to relax.

Sunday Morning

Relaxing morning. My cat woke me up again. I had a cup of coffee and it is relaxing. I am so relaxed that I don't want to go back in the world. I just want to stay in the moment. The weather is cold and crisp. The snow stopped. Only if the weather is 10 degree warmer, I would have been back on the saddle.

Why I need the stuff that I like

I like the stuff that I like because I find comfort in them.

I am never a big fan of the main stream society because it is boring in my opinion. It is very easy to be the one and to be assimilated to the collective. I just like things that are different. I want to have a personality. I am a different person. I am not doing to piss off the world, but I am doing it for myself. When I am true to myself, people tell me that I need to grow up.

To be honest, I am still in search of the meaning of being a grown up. Does growing up mean that I will be living my life like my neighbours or my mates at work? If so, kill me right now.

I enjoy the goth culture because it is romantic. Unlike many cultures, the goth culture has no roots in being violent toward others. It is beautiful. The clothes are great and people are beautiful. It celebrates things that are mystify by the majority. I found comfort in it.

More to come....

like the holidays, it won't last

'Like the Holidays, it won't last' is the tagline that Chevy uses in the commercial for the last few weeks. Like any other commercial, it is used to stimulate the economy and get the buying public to buy their cars. If GM doesn't get the rescue from any government, it will not last either.

That got me thinking. Will the current recession change the way that we live. We have been living in excess. We all know it. There are so much waste and hopefully we are going to wise up.

Sick

I am not feeling very well. My feet are always cold and I am always tired. It doesn't matter what I do or what I eat, I don't have the energy. I would fall in sleep early. I have a feel that it is the stress of working. I don't even want to go out to have fun. I just want to stay home and sleep.

Of course, I am glad to have my friends. I always have lots of plans with them.

I am going to see a doctor today and I hope that she can find out what the hell is wrong with me.

They have something in common

Dr. Dana Scully
Dr. Temperance Brennen
Abby Sciuto

All of these fictional charactors have something in common. They are smart, intelligent, and sexy.

However, I think their brains are sexier than anything.