I am not sorry

Reason # 34 - Why I want out of the corporate world

I am not sorry. I can't say sorry if I know that I am right. I don't care if the whiney little bitch thinks she is right now. I don't FUcking care. When I am right, I am right. I won't apologise.

I am ready to leave the corporate world. Fuck those whiney little receptionists.

I am a human being

I am a human being, not a human resource.

I went an Artist Show case today in East side of Vancouver and in a particular show case, I saw this piece. The piece is called ' I am a human being , not a human resource.' I was very interested.

Feeling mellow.

I am feeling very mellow. After a week of stressing out for no good reason, I can finally relax. Instead of going out to a loud club, I elected to do something quiet with friends. I met up with a friend for some late night sushi. I had a good time and the food was good.

On Being Single

I am dressing better and better every day. I no longer rely on my goretex type clothing. I rather wear slacks and jeans. I also bought a 3/4 length wool coat for the winter. I want to look nice and not just look like every other person.

I was very particular about this coat. There are lots of coats out there and I want a black one with a classic cut. I want it to last a few seasons. I also want to wear it to some nice places as well.

Movember

I am growing facial hair because I want to be part of movember. I have yet to be successful in growing a beard, but I am going to try. I haven't shaved in a week and a half. The beard is bothering me and i really want to shave it off. I don't like facial hair.

Monday

I am tired and I just had a good meal. I am ready for bed.

Control

Am I loosing Control? or am I regaining control of life? or have I found passion again?

I wanted to watch Control again. It had been a long since I want to see a film for the 2nd time.

Why?

Why am I here. I started to ask this question today.

I was in a motorcycle accident two days ago and I walked away without a scratch. The the glare from the wet street blinded me and I failed to see the red light. I hit the brake, and the wet street didn't have enough to get up right. The bike went one side and I went the other way. My head didn't hit the ground and I managed to stay up the whole time.

I got up and the bike was on the ground. Not a scratch on me and my jeans looked fine. I walked away from the crash. The bike was different. The insurance company declared it a complete lost.

Then I asked, why was i so lucky and I don't believe in luck. There must be a reason that i survived the crash without a scratch. I need to know why. I am going to spend the rest of mt like seeking out the answer.

True Faith - New Order

I feel so extraordinary
Somethings got a hold on me
I get this feeling Im in motion
A sudden sense of liberty
I dont care cause Im not there
And I dont care if Im here tomorrow
Again and again Ive taken too much
Of the things that cost you too much
I used to think that the day would never come
Id see delight in the shade of the morning sun
My morning sun is the drug that brings me near
To the childhood I lost, replaced by fear
I used to think that the day would never come
That my life would depend on the morning sun...

When I was a very small boy,
Very small boys talked to me
Now that weve grown up together
Theyre afraid of what they see
Thats the price that we all pay
Our valued destiny comes to nothing
I cant tell you where were going
I guess there was just no way of knowing
I used to think that the day would never come
Id see delight in the shade of the morning sun
My morning sun is the drug that brings me near
To the childhood I lost, replaced by fear
I used to think that the day would never come
That my life would depend on the morning sun...

I feel so extraordinary
Somethings got a hold on me
I get this feeling Im in motion
A sudden sense of liberty
The chances are weve gone too far
You took my time and you took my money
Now I fear youve left me standing
In a world thats so demanding
I used to think that the day would never come
Id see delight in the shade of the morning sun
My morning sun is the drug that brings me near
To the childhood I lost, replaced by fear
I used to think that the day would never come
That my life would depend on the morning sun...

Finding comfort in music

Music is an important part of my life.

I haven't been able to watch a movie by myself in a while. No matter how much I wanted to see the film, I couldn't put the disc in the player. I need some one to be in my company to watch a movie. I hate being on my own for that reason. I miss the company.

However, I picked up a new DVD today. It was a biopic about Ian Curtis. Ian Curtis was the lead singer for the Band, Joy division. I was able to watch the film on my own.

It was a great film and it was a moving tribute to one of the greatest singers from Manchester, England.

Hazel Nut falvoured Hot Chocolate

Hot chocolate relaxes me after a day at work. I usually have one after dinner.

After I fixed one up tonight, I decided to add a small amount of hazel nut flavoured creamer. It turned out to be a great choice.

Yum