I need a way out

I need a way out and I don't know what to do. I could be looking at 3 law suit against me in a week. Eventhough I am trying hard to stay positive, but I don't know. I don't know what to do. I am confused and scared shitless. I hate not to be in control or knowing my destiny. I have never face the reality that I could loose everything that I have. Damn it, I am not feeling good. I could loose everything because of a greedy bitch in my life.

Do I kill myself or do I face the fact that I have lost everything.